the will to lose control, a new kind of self control

Attempting an "artist date" today but am having major creative blockage. Of course I haven't even picked up a brush yet, so go figure. I just don't feel all that inspired at the moment. Too many unfinished chores that makes my need for closure itch and scream to be scratched. I guess that is the real discipline behind the artist date, the ability to put all aside for the sake of doing something seemingly unnecessary and even frivolous. It is a different kind of self-control. So, as much as it pains me to lose control today, I also recognize that it is an important aspect of my creative health. So off I go...